The birth window is closing. It’s been almost 3 weeks and things have changed, like they always do. We are waiting for you to smile and I can feel the distance between me and magic.
Tired will do that to you
Tired and ‘my toddler doesn’t listen to me.’
But he does listen – he just might choose not to obey our nags. And he does run to K as he leaves for work and hug him. “I love you Dad!”
magic is still here.
Open my eyes to see it.
Calm babies are easier than crying babies. But you are still the one I cried for as I knelt in the tub, who I carried and will carry whether you're calm or cry.
Open my ears
– i want to love you as you cry
Open my mind
– there are many ways to mother and clear floors just get dirty again
I kneel in front of your big brother, in the bathroom, helping him go potty. Blonde curls – perfect ringlets – I’m eye level and his eyes are earnest and wide.
There is no rush.
This is all I want right now.
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