moments

 My son

Who am i today?

Someone who wants to be here.

Someone who wants to be here, for you, my son.

“I will see you soon, mom!”

He says as he runs back around the corner instead of heading out to the car. He wants to say goodbye many times.

He gave me a kiss on my cheek, snuggled and kissed the baby in my arms, snuggled against me, kissed my cheek, snuggled and kissed the baby’s cheek, and again, and again, and again. 

“I love you so much,” I say. I hug him.

I don’t want him to stop these sweet goodbyes.

Grandma and grandpa are trying to get him out the door.

“I will be right back!” he says. “I will see you soon!” “I love you!” He runs back for another kiss. Be like this forever?

Just 10 minutes ago you were pinching me and I was mad.

Now I am hugging you, and never wanting to let you go. 

A day

My heels hurt, a little.

My shirt stinks, spit up on me, crying baby, toddler,

And i’m so happy.

It just takes 5 seconds of being called mama, him holding my hand, baby eyes smiling at mine,

To feel bliss.